Friday, September 14, 2012
Otherwise the summer has gone by as summers do. Now the Cosmos that I planted from seed is blooming prettily, always evidence of the onset of Fall. There have been only a few very hot days, so the whole season had an air of unfulfilled expectation. There was neither disappointment, nor satisfaction, though, only a mild sense of having missed something that ought to have been there. Carrie visited a few weeks ago, on her birthday, and our time together was beautifully enjoyable. How wonderful it is that our relationship has never faltered, never been tumultuous. Since the day she was born she has been nothing but a joy. Being a parent to both my children has far exceeded any expectations I had when Phil and I decided to have a baby. The reality that what you are doing is making another human being is slow in coming.....very slow. I really miss seeing and knowing Jesse as an adult. He and I had a considerable amount of time together by ourselves, after both Phil and Carrie were both gone. We were very comfortable, moving in separate but somehow compatible worlds that overlapped in pleasant, meaningful ways. Well, at least that's how I saw it.